blah.

How can you act as if the past two and a half years didn't happen?
They did.

Some parts sucked, but so much of it was great.

It's sad you don't think of me with fond memories as I do with you.
Instead you are trying to forget I ever existed.



Your loss.

This was never my home.

It's so weird how a few days can change everything.

As I take down the pictures on the wall,
and divide our things between what is mine and what is yours,
I'm overwhelmed by the feeling that I never belonged here.
Not in this place. Maybe not even with you.
It's hard to tell when your life is neatly packed into cardboard boxes.

I'm glad this is happening, despite how awkward things might be with us.
This was never my home. You were never my home.


This is just the beginning of my life.
A new chapter.
In a way I am grateful to you:
You have now freed me to do all the things I've always wanted to.
I can spend next summer in Europe.
I can teach in Thailand after I graduate.

So much world to see, so little time.
Wish me luck.

Ooooh Life.

So many things to update on, so little time. Essentially some key events I have attended since my last update include: my cousin Tylers wedding, my family's gold tournament, aaand the Blink 182 concert.

SO, the wedding: Was SO much fun. Got shit faced and danced with my dad all night, pretty much. T'was a good night. I took a friend of the family, Cody, as my date because Blain is a doucher and didn't get the weekend off of work. But whatevs. Hilarious night.

Golf tournament: Also an amazing night. Once again, was quite shit faced. Sang karaoke. I was the MC =) I got to announce all of the prizes and such. While eating a sausage, I nearly bit off my finger. Classy.

BLINK CONCERT: AAAAAMAZING. Booked our hotel at the Renaissance, but they oversold for the night so we got moved to the Fairmont Royal York. Take a moment and google that hotel. WTF. We felt like IDIOTS in there. Everyone was all dressed up and fancy and we were scraggly ass bums in jeans. We walked back to the hotel after the concert, and it was POURING out soooo we stumbled in drenched and I had makeup running down my face. Claaaaassy shit. The concert was great. I THROUGHLY recommend seeing them in concert.

Yeeaaaa, thats about as much detail as I'm putting in this hoe. PEACE BITCHES.

OH, KITTY UPDATE.

OH OH OH, 

We got a new foster kitten named Victoria. Blain LOVES her, and has decided that she is HIS kitten, and I'm not allowed to play with her. For the first time, out of all the cats in and out of here, she likes him more than me. So he is pretty excited. She is always snuggling with him, and sleeping all curled up on his pillow.

She is a total friggin sweetheart. The most well-behaved kitten on the planet. Total snuggle monster. Her new name is Poppy =)

I'm totes getting another foster cat though. I don't even care what Blain thinks/says. It's my apartment too, and I will fill to the mother effing BRIM with cats. MWAHHHAHAHHAAH.

Pixie would have loved this. New kitties to play with all the time. *sigh* I'm beginning to forget what it was like having her. Losing memories is so hard. Atleast I have pictures and a few videos. =(

Flip flops + rain = bad news bears.

SO.

I just got back from my exam about 30 mins ago. Essentially today was fucking BRUTE. It seemed to be a bit cloudy out when I was leaving the house, but figured I would still be OK in flip flops, as it wasn't particularly cold.

That was without a doubt the worst decision of my day.

Blain came with me to the bus stop, so he could travel on to buy groceries for dinner. I am legit 20 mins early for the bus. I see it coming and get out of the bus shelter and go to the sidewalk. Mother fucker passes me. 

I almost lost my shit. Like hardcore. 

I had to squish my way down King St in my fucking flip flops, sliding all over the place like a complete doucher. Because of this, I obviously could not walk very fast, and it was becoming more and more present with every passing moment that I was going to be late for my exam.

ANYWAYS, I end up rounding the corner into my classroom a couple seconds after 7:00. Solid. So I'm standing in the middle of my class, lookin' haggard and stressed as ever, with no fucking desk to sit at. Legit wanted a meteorite to hit my classroom in that moment.  The exam was decently easy. Not feeling like a 90%, but deff not a fail, so overall, great success. I finished it in about 30 mins, making the whole trip fairly useless.

I'm just glad it's over with.

I still have one small assignment left that I have to do by next Tuesday. I figure I'll hand in my assignment, get my student card, and meet with my academic advisor in the same day. Three birds, one stone.

I dig it.

Dear Waldo,

Hello baby boy. I hope you know that I didn't let those people take you because I didn't love you, because trust me, I definitely did. You have been such a good boy the last few weeks, and I'm so happy that you're going to have a friend to play with at your new house. 

I hope you are nice to her! She seems like a lovely kitty. I hope you'll be best friends with her. Maybe then you won't miss the herd so much =(. I hope you know that you are going to a safe place, and not back to animal control. I would never do that to you baby boy. Never ever.

 

They are going to love you forever, mister. I promise.

This hurts a lot. I wonder if it gets any easier to say goodbye to them. Fostering is tough =(.

Summah school is for SQUARRREEESSS.

I'm not sure if I mentioned this, but I got into McMaster University (wehooo!). BUT, in order to be enrolled as a second year student in September, I have to take a course this spring. It's twice a week, Mondays and Wednesday from 7 - 10 PM. Balls, I know. Buuut the first class was pretty awesome, minus an obnoxiously loud guy sitting next to me. It always bothers me when people are loud during lectures. WHY are you even there!? Why pay $500 to come sit in a class and not pay attention?! FRIGG.

Maybe I'm a nerd. Mehh. Regardless, I love school, and am very excited to be back in it after having a whole semester off =).

My building is having balcony repairs done, and that shit is ridiculously loud. A letter was put on my door informing me that they start on my balcony tomorrow. That should be just friggin LOOOVELY. I work early anyways, so I suppose that really doesn't matter. 

OH OH! And after work tomorrow, my momma is going to come pick me up and I'm going home for a few days. WEHOOOOO! My sister is going to be there too, so it should be a good time. We are going to have a BBQ =). I luhh cheezburgerz. 

Maybe I won't be late for tonight's class, now that I know where it is, haha. 

HOLLER.